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Ephemera etc.

Monday, October 30, 2006

Mums, bubs and bosses

New report at: http://www.abs.gov.au/AUSSTATS/abs@.nsf/mf/4913.0?OpenDocument
Interesting info on trends, such as:

By the time that they were interviewed, nearly half of the women with their youngest child under two years of age had worked in a job since the birth (181,000 or 39%), and most of these mothers (126,000) had returned to work with the employer that they had prior to the birth. Of those mothers working in a job since the most recent birth, 75,000 (41%) had commenced work before the child was four months old (rounded to nearest month).

and

Of the 170,000 women who had worked in a job while pregnant (other than in their own unincorporated business), and who had not taken paid maternity leave related to their latest birth, half stated that such leave was either not available or not offered by their employer. Over a quarter (28%) of women reported they were not eligible for paid maternity leave, although the reported ineligibility rate was lower (20%) for women who had worked for the same employer for a year or more.

Friday, October 27, 2006

In this piece I really just wanted to explore the concept of twigs. It’s twigs.

I mentioned Douglas Coupland in the post below. Well for thoise who haven’t met his work, he is a Canadian author who I first encountered when I had a beau who was quite a fan – I borrowed and read several. Writes a lot about office drones in the wacky IT start up silica valley world. Lots of takeaway coffees and bad Seinfeldesque white sneakers with jeans. Existential angst. Computer nerdism. Etc. When I was about to mention him I went to wiki to see if I had remembered and spelt his name right, as I realised I’d f’d up Eric Fromm’s name in previous post about my rose quartz and felt a bit bad about it later (interpretive spelling, I am quite a fan, and naturally talented in unique non-conventional word formings –aka can’t spell - but realise that it can lead to confusion) and while there discovered that he does visual art as welll as written stuff.

Check out his wacky artwork in the I like the Future and the Future Likes me Exhibition. I LOVE the hand chewed books and dollar bills made into wasp nests with twigs. Divine. Really I do – I am actually envious of the time he spent chewing up those bits of paper – it’s great self referential stuff, dethroning himself as famous author, the shredding of artiface and ediface, the transformation of human made pinnacles of achievement into something earthy and humble but equally as majestic, the rebirth. And its funny. As a fan of clever novelty and the absurd, I like an art piece which makes me laugh. And I can at the same time see that it’s maybe ridiculous and self-indulgent. Reminds me of this TFD cartoon.

So my question is “Can you love something sincerely and also think its ridiculous?”. I think you can. This is the beauty of paradoxical logic, as opposed to Aristotelean logic (see? I might not be able to spell your name Eric, but I am listening to what you’re saying). The thing is and isn’t at the same time and it makes perfect paradoxical sense.

Bored but busy

This has to be one of the worst combinations. It comes to me as a result of having to be somewhere and look busy but not being all that in love with the thinking tasks required. I read an email that says ‘new petty cash form’ and want to cry with boredom. What are the new features of said form? Where will I find a hard copy and electronic copy? Oh god shoot me. Tippety typey type and make some documents. Don’t sing. Don’t sneak off to the library to put your feet up and read your novel. Don’t write your Opus, don’t doodle, just tippety typey type like a good girl. Be even tempered and work at a steady pace, little automaton, and make nice little nuggets of saleable work. Check my emails a zillion times a minute. Make another cup of tea. Wish the day would be over. Keep looking busy. Bored, bored, bored and busy. It’s like a blues song that needs writing. A whole world of strange Dilbert inspired blues. Kind of Douglas Coupland meets Muddy Waters but maybe sung with all strange and squeaky spoken female vocals aka avante garde student radio tunes. And don’t ever admit to being bored – that would be unprofessional and unkind to the others who all seem to be keeping up the ruse that there is no place else they’d rather be. Thanks a lot Ford, thank you so much for the production line, and thanks very much to whoever the hell invented grey laminex and thanks a great big dollop more to whoever the hell invented corporate office culture and desk work. Ugh. I am like some well read, polite, educated, relatively well groomed, strategic thinking battery hen. Disillusioned today? Pecking at myself with my sad little battery hen beak? Crying out for the light of day and some texture to this laminex world. Oh no, not at all…

Wednesday, October 25, 2006

Corporate wiccca

So there I am in a meeting and I feel this slipping feeling. What the ?? Oh that would be the rose quartz chrystal I have nestled in my bra to help open my love chakra. You know, reading Eric Fromh and musing on how important it is to be loving in our response to the world, and Mystic Medusa was writing about it, and well, there was this shop with stones and well, you know, whatever. So. But really, you don’t want to have to explain the shocked look on your face and the stunned mullet moment while you realise that you have just laid a lump of rose quartz under your jumper like some glamorous chicken and now need to help it find its way back up into your bra cup without causing undue attention to yourself. And whilst maintaining the flow of discussion. ‘Yes, um, mapping – the err, characteristics of the various goals.’ (Rose quartz has just fallen out!) ‘Across the multiple dimensions’ (of my bra!) ‘Both of the different scales and the different processes’ (‘Blimey! That’s embarrassing!’) ‘could really help us in defining the goals’ (‘Righto, sneaky sneaky fingers, just work that rock back up now) ‘and ultimately in more streamlined evaluation at the end of the project’ (‘and in it goes! Yippee!’).

Gaping like a fish

The girl comes up to me at the bar and looks at me and reaches towards the stool and says ‘doyoumindifisanyonesittingcanitakethestool?’ or similar, I assume, and I say ‘err yes. Umm no’ not knowing whether the question was ‘do I mind’ (no) or ‘can I take’ (yes). I kind of frown and smile and she takes the stool and I explain to my drinking buddy that I had no idea what she said, and he explains that in fact she hadn’t said anything, she’d just kind of fish mouthed and shrugged and looked plaintif with bared teeth and little empty mouthed puffs, like my cat doing his reproachful silent meow.

10 ways not to pack

1. Start unpeeling the newsheets very slowly as you read ‘ooh, wow imagine that! he used to be a rockstar and now is into particle physics…’ ‘hey, I didn’t know that cauliflower was good for your heart’ ‘oh, look at those little pandas, so cute and panda-y..’
2. Decide that moving house is the perfect time to do all the filing and sorting of paperwork that you haven’t done for the last year or to sort out your photo storage system and catalogue those holiday photos that are still floating in boxes
3. Decide that before packing your books you might just read a couple quickly – you know those ones that people have leant you, or maybe just the ones you were SURE you were going to have finished by now – like maybe the move will be easier if you’ve read some last minute tome on philosophy that helps make you wiser and wittier and more, you know, knowledgeable and generally philosophical about moving.
4. Blog about moving approximately every five minutes.
5. Put all your cardboard boxes in the loungeroom, drink wine, healf heartedly pop a few things in one box, leave all the cupboard doors open, scare the cat with the rustling of newspapers as you read about pandas, make a cup of tea, move things around a bit, go to bed with loungeroom looking like modern art piece on the theme of moving
6. Try on every dress and lipstick before packing them – just to make sure you truly still love them and want them in your life
7. Decide to spend long hours cooking exotic dishes to use up those little jars of nuts and spices, because it JUST WOULDN’T MAKE SENSE to move them – despite the fact that they collectively probably weigh 50g and take up about as much room as a shoebox
8. Go out for dinner and lot and talk authoritatively on the intricacies of moving
9. Daydream about all the yoga classes, packed lunches for work and cards to your grandma you plan to do when in the new house rather than devising the world’s best labeling classification system for homewares (I look forward to much ‘shoes and plastic rabbit and clip on earrings’, ‘teapot, cook books, placemats, spices and fabric paints’, ‘electrical doodads, fan and cat brushes’)
10. Dance around the loungeroom and pretend you are a sneering rockstar to Pop Will Eat Itself

Sunday, October 22, 2006

Movelicious

Well, the time has come - in a couple more weeks I will be bundling the contents of my spunky art deco solo lady and cat apartment into a van and sending it heaving down the hill into the big bad city. I have now told the story of moving at so many social gatherings it feels like a well worn fable from times of old. The story of the commute. The story of all the people n things I'll miss from this town. The story of how it might not be for ever but at least I'll have more time to sleep and have a social life. I've told it all so often the gold edging is wearing off and it's starting to look shabby. Arright already, just let me move so I don't have to talk about it anmore!
This weekend I solemly declared my intention to start packing boxes. I went out for dinner, went to a friends place for lunch, did my shopping, cleaned the bathroom, polished the stovetop, had various phone calls, watched a dvd - and many other scintillating domestic and social things...and then finally, Sunday night - packed a box! Yah. Two in fact. One with crockery and tablecloths, one with art gear. Mmm the essentials. Yes, so as ypou can imagine, that's really knocked a sizeable dent in the to do list. Erm....or not.
Next weekend, many more boxes will be packed for sure. After all, I've broken the ice now...

Saturday, October 21, 2006

my Neptune transit made me drunk

Mystic medusa posted recently on the wonderous opportunities for astro-excuses: "using my Neptune transit made me drunk, I'm obsessive about you because of Pluto, Uranus made me broke but I am soooo fulfilled...Saturn made me MEAN. Mercury made me indiscreet. Venus is why I'm into what you call slutty but I see it more as sacred sexuality...Anger problem? It's my Mars transit. Jupiter made me fat." Made me laugh.

My most recent favourite lame-ass mental excuses that I occasionally wheel out are: where I live ('oh I'm on mountain time', and 'I'm beyond fashion - I live in the mountains'), my line of work ('oh I don't need to know the details, I'm a transdisciplinary systems thinker'); and my ever shifting sense of my own character ('it's ok that I'm messy - I'm highly creative', or 'it's ok that I'm ridiculously pedantic about pointless details sometimes - I'm thorough') not to mention the wide range of excuses my star signs lend me (Introverted? wafty? hopeless romantic? daydreamer? Pisces you see. Bossy? Extraverted? opinionated? How could I not be - I'm a Fire Dragon in Chinese astrology).

Friday, October 20, 2006

In the bookshop

A man needs to borrow $1.30, he’s had some issue with the train ticket machine, he gets paid for gardening work on the weekend, he gets his dole cheque next week. He wants the UFO books in the window. The man says I have two pieces of rhubarb pie I baked this morning you can have. Brian agrees that they are yummy books, and that they will sell soon, he’s not so sure about holding any till next week. He needs cash. Like everyone he supposes. The man says which ones he doesn’t need (his head in the shop window) which ones he already has. Brian talks away to himself, remarking that it’s very interesting isn’t it, which ones you already have and don’t need, which I gradually realise is sarcasm, with a cultured white eyebrow and his fingerless gloves making him look part Cambridge Don, part crazy cat man. Brain lends him $5, the man says I still owe you one dollar from last week, from those books I bought, Brian laughs and shakes his head like it’s all baffling to him, like another dollar added to the tab, this windy and unforeseeable situation, these strange people and moments blown in the door of his shop, him, a genteel older gentleman trying to read in peace. The man is grateful and gets out a thick insulated container which has in it slices of pie wrapped neatly in paper, he is saying here they are, oh I suppose you can just hang onto the container too, keeps them cool, and I can pick it up next week, next week when I come in for the book. Brian takes the thing as it is passed to him and half unscrews it, looks at it baffled, looks at me, looks at the man, like this is some new arrangement, some complex and unwarranted turn of events involving insulated containers, and he can’t quite understand how this figures in with the train money and the book holding and the gardening money and the dole cheque, is a bit confused as to what he has now agreed to take or swap. I explain to him its to keep the pie cool. I explain that the man is giving him pie. The man says I only bought it last week, its handy for this sort of thing. Brian says he doesn’t really want… I explain that the man is not giving him the container, that he has not just bought this container off the man with his $5, that the pie is a gift, the container will keep it cool. The man says I still owe you the $6, and I’ll just collect the container next week. I am concerned that Brian will give back the pie in his confusion and devastating bookish frankness but something in my tone must have been firm enough, to make the pie exchange a fait accomplit, a done deal, the look on my face explaining that his acceptance of this gesture was a non-negotiable, he takes the container, saying oh, oh yes, I see.

The man is satisfied, and I continue with my purchase, but eyeing off another volume in the window before I do. I ask should I read the Odyssey, should I read the Iliad first, did it matter. Brain tells me he’s read both in Greek, he found the Odessy excellent, very funny. The first anti hero he supposes. He is teaching Greek classes now. I ask how many in the classes. He says well, one. He finds people have all different times that they are available, it becomes too hard. I ask is the Greek today very similar – does the Greek of Plato help you speak in Greece today, he tells me there are similarities, vocab, but it’s different. He teaches the old stuff. He can also teach me Latin. Arabic. Or Hebrew. He remembers each one and adds it as an afterthought. How much are the lessons I ask, he says $15 and winces a little, saying it is you know my profession, and I say fifteen or fifty? Repeating fifteen or fifty as he goes on to tell me about his current Greek scholar who is brilliant, hungry for knowledge, doing so well. I’m thinking $15 is cheaper than a piano lesson, fifty is still justifiable for a private lesson but a little steep. He says fifteen and I tell him he could charge more, but he says well, there are people who have learnt who otherwise wouldn’t have. It’s like the books I put out for free in the box out the front. Some people… Some people, and he looks sorrowful and the meaning is rich in the gaps of his sentence – the unspoken yearning for books, the hunger that people have to know, the tightness of incomes, the desperation of those on welfare who want books and otherwise would have to come in with pie and bus money and stories of dole cheques. I say, of course, yes of course. He tells me about a girl who was being home schooled, whose parents were quite hard up but could nevertheless afford the classes, she learnt Greek and Latin, she went on to… I say I’ll think about it. I wonder about moving away so soon when there are still all these things in this town that I had dreamt of doing and haven’t quite yet, in my 18 months, my scant two years, I will not leave with all the adventures and victories that I had hoped for on my heros journey, my fools time away from the hustle and bustle. He says yes you think about it, lets talk soon, we’ll make a date. He says, oh. I suppose I should choose another word for that. I say no Brian, that’s fine, I know exactly what you mean.

No deadlines and cold coffee in heaven, do wop

Also enjoying a gospel CD I picked up in Melbourne, old songs from the Smithsonian Folkways Recordings. Southern US Gospel, a lot of it by white churchgoers, funny that, I realised I had a little racist reaction to the notion of the songs being sung by whiter rather than black southerners. I find their voices a little more nasal and, some part of me is a little offended that they are singing songs that I think of as arising out of oppressed black culture in the South. I thought ‘great – have slaves, lynch people, and then steal their songs’. Which I realise is actually a pretty crap thing to think: on many levels – surely not all white southerners can be lumped in the same basket regarding their politics, surely no-one owns culture and it inevitably gets celebrated and reinterpreted by people from all backgrounds, and hey, isn’t Gospel already a merging of traditional Christian hymns that were being sung in America (brought from Ireland and England), old African tunes brought across through the slave trade, weird apalachian mountain folk and bluegrass music etc. ? (I’m no expert here, this is half remembered and guessed rather than based on research). And really, in my book, gospel is all about the feeling, not even the lyrics, not even the individual voices, so I was a bit harsh in calling them nasal when in fact some of the tracks are beautiful in their plaintive, gentle, optimism. I personally am not a huge fan of organised religion of any flavour, for myself, so the pentacostal movement which ended up having a strong element of Gospel music is not my cup of tea, but in general I think the notion of singing out hopes and good wishes is a nice one – whether it’s a bit of ohm rami, the percussive heart sutra in Japanese or a bit of Hallelujah action. I’m quite fond of a catchy tune about getting on board trains* and going down to the water. I am much more comfortable in thinking in metaphore these days than I once was, so I swiftly translate any specific words or phrases that don’t resonate into meanings that do.

*Gospel songs are nicely pro-public transport. You never hear of anyone getting on board the Gospel family wagon with only one person in it commuting to work. Will the road to heaven be paved with bus and T2 lanes?

Tuesday, October 17, 2006

Swing it, brother, swing

Just jiving away here to my Billie Holiday double CD, and hadn’t heard this song before. Like it. She has such a knack of deemphasizing the bits that other people would normally belt out and instead letting them slide away like ice cream on a hot day. Oooh. I’m sure there’s a musical term for that – maybe someone out there can set me straight on some lingo about phrasing?

Sunday, October 15, 2006

"And rolling..."

Oh thankyou Betty Sue for writing up the application for our new film project. Wouldn't it be nice. A year of cardigans and whimsy in the name of art. Aaaah. I think it is an accurate portrait(noting the standard optimistic elaboration in the name of winning funds - especially 'creamy complexion'? 'able to read technical manuals'? hhhm, lets hope they don't do reference checks). The other items on my cv which would make me an ideal candidate for the project that I think fell off the final application Betty Sue and you might want to paste in before we email it through are: an innate ability to create passionate drama out of love affairs that are mostly completely figments of my own imagination; an ability to spend long minutes at fruit stalls dreamily inspecting plums and bunches of herbs in a picturesque manner (whilst maintaining baguette under arm); a willingness to do scenes wearing a beret - you know, as long as its tastefully done, respectful, not gratuitous, part of the story etc. Also thinking we might need to divvy up the role. I see long shots of you in cafe with barrista plying you with muffins and your demurely looking up under cute swinging bob, crossing your mary-janed legs and looking enigmatic...

Friday, October 13, 2006

Frock Friday

Cool on the heels of International Talk like a Pirate Day (a fortnight agoish) I’d like to initiate a weekly special day - Frock Friday. Now before I start, yes, I know that people are starving to death and being hurt by violent people and that habitat is being cleared and oceans are being treated like waste dumps, and I should really have something better to talk about than frou frou, and I do know this, I feel all of this, but shit – that’s humans huh? Full of contradictions? Full of light and dark, holding the fragile extremes of the world in our meaty palms. Years from now when our civilization has poisoned itself from antibacterial surface spray and petrochemical based wrinkle creams, starved itself from eating nothing but processed food with no useful content and all flavours and colours made in a lab, suffering from either type 2 diabetes or heart disease or deep despair (I know, this is just too too cheery isn’t it) – at that time in the future someone looking back through the stratified fossilized remains of zeros and ones splayed out to make pretty words and patterns in cyberspace will think “what the fuck where they doing?”. “Why the bejeepers was this otherwise apparently reasonably intelligent organism sitting on top of the pile of 40,000 plus years of human history - and who can even be bothered to remember just how many years of evolution - and using the wealth and abundant leisure time and (for the time remarkably advanced) technology and insight that was available to her to communicate to her wider networks of friends about – ways to drape woven textiles around her body? They may as well have formed a punk band and electric guitared while Rome burnt.” And I think mmm – punk band, not a bad idea. But back to the frocks. Frock Friday is my version of mufti (that’s ‘casual’ for the non-eastsiders) day in the office. Not that I work in a highly corporate thou must wear a suit kind of environment (heaven forbid) – it’s a bit more like working somewhere with a parent that says ‘I trust you, I know you’ll do the right thing – you decide’ and you are left to be your own dress code enforcer – censoring the occasional whim to wear silly school girl tunics with fishnets or completely trashed but comfortable gardening pants with daggy old jumper, and instead turning up with a modicum of officeishness, with hems up, with colours to amuse yourself but most of your bits that are meant to be covered, covered, tryting to look like you take the whole thing seriously and also deserve to be taken seriously. Except on Fridays. On Fridays I think it is entirely appropriate to wear silly 1950’s frocks with a little back jumper and Mary-Janes (these are shoes, just for your information oh voyeuristic future readers who probably no longer wear shoes because you’ve figured out that feet are happier being massaged and going bare, and indeed you probably wear spacey light weave jumpsuits that have algae spliced into the cellular make up and hence phosphoresce beautifully in the moonlight and photosynthesise beautifully in the sun, giving you energy to run your personal teleport devices, which are made mostly of woven vines). I also think it is entirely appropriate to wear the skpant (no that’s not a typo for ski pant – skipants are obviously a hideous throwback to the eighties which I for one will not be revisiting – elastic stirrups under the foot, now really, was that ever comfortable?) – which is the sk(irt)(worn over a)pant. Thanks to Miss Ivy who gave me a word for this lovely phenomena which I previously didn’t even think to give a name to. So, frock Friday could include a jaunty slip dress layered with coloured lace singlets over a footless tight (if you are the waify nymph type), or a structured shorty dress that flares out from the hip and barely covers your arse but mirrors the curve of your flared pants. It can even be worn over an otherwise entirely conservative pinstripe suit – a gash of hot pink silk or lurid polyester patterned dress over the pant and under the jacket. Or, like me today, you could wear an above the knee orange and black and white patterned 60’s drop waist dress, with a little triangle of permapleat on one side and lovely black bias binding edging, over a black three quarter pant, with a black high heel sandal. The sandal; makes it all seem officey you see – it must be a serious outfit, look at those conservative shoes. And what of the gender issue? (yes jumpsuit folk, I know you’ll find this hard to believe but we still for the most part expect people to dress according to binary uniforms set down gender lines, which are supposed to be set by biological differences, and lots of people get all confused and upset if people do their own thing and ignore iron clad convention). Well, I don’t know. I know that not everyone is into frocks (both many boys and many girls) and that some people would feel decidedly un-fun in frou frou. So maybe we can use the word frock to mean more than just an actual literal dress, and mean more the act of ‘frocking up’ which to me conjures dress ups and wearing your favourite things, conjuring up mojo based on wearing significant accessories, and exuding glamour (as in the original meaning which was about magical charisma, rather than a uniform of diamonds and designer brands). And if that doesn’t ring your bells maybe you can just go back to dressing like a pirate and saying ‘argh’ a lot, which is fine too.

Thursday, October 12, 2006

Arty meme thingo still open

Can I actually send food to Packistan Biz or will the other kids laugh at you for getting a care package? And, no thanks, no cricket bat for me, I really would rather a goat. But not a goat that should go to a poor hungry family. in any case, how would I explain a goat wandering into a loungeroom mid house inspection? A cat you can lie and say is the neighbours and came in through the window. A goat is really very much harder to explain.

Game is still open if anyone wants to play. Crap game really. I should have posed a quizz questions or something for a sense of challenge.

How's this:
What kind of flowers did I pick yesterday to decorate my desk at work with? OR
What colour fishnets am I currently sporting?

Wednesday, October 11, 2006

In train

Two school girls swap notes on relationships and develop a gameplan for having sex for the first time.

I mean how do you imagine it?
So how did it happen? Like stepwise? Did it start with hugging?
Yeah and then he groped me.
I said to him ‘we’ve been doing the relationship steps!’
What are they again?
Like talking, hand holding, kissing, hugging, groping, other groping, blowjobs and that and then you know…
How many’s that? We should make it like 11 steps, or 13. I like 11.
Well yeah you can skips the steps and just use it as guidelines.
Well exactly, because like from day one we’ve kind of skipped the guidelines, said ‘screw the guidelines’.
Can you explain the 69 thing to me, I just don’t really get it. What? Eeeuw! That like so doesn’t make sense. Like that wouldn’t work. Maybe we can make another word for it.
Don’t you like ever worry that after you do it there’ll be nothing left to do?

Arty meme thingo

Thanks to Betty Sue for this nice idea that she saw elsewhere. First 4 people to comment to this post get a lovely.. something. Yes! Your very own something. It could be a zany piece of feltwear, could be a print, cartoon, crap poem – lucky dip. Something I will make just for you and email (if electronic) /post (if hard copy) to your lovely abode, wherever that happens to be, assuming you have a postal service that gets to your part of the universe. Yah! Random present for you. If anyone ever wants to send me random presents, T-shirts, buttons or stickers from cat and girl or toothpaste for dinner would be gratefully received as would your own creative um, creations, coloured fishnet tights (a girl can never have too many), donations to very good causes, or either of the Italo Calvino books which I am yet to but keen to read: ‘Read the Classics’ or ‘Invisible Cities’.*

*’Did she just post a Christmas wish list?’
‘Oh my God, I think so’
‘That is like, so year 4.’
‘I reckon, talk about cheeky.’
‘I know – like “and I want a Barbie doll, and a cricket bat and an underwater watch…”’
‘How about a lump of coal huh? How would that be Christmas list girl??’
‘Yeah. Coal. Ha ha, coal, yeah see how you like coal. Ha ha ha ha ha. Cool.’
‘’Um, yeah, whatever.’
‘Coal, like in your stocking. In your fishnet stocking, Ha ha ha ha ha. Coal.’
‘Please stop laughing now.’

Note: Please do not send me lumps of coal. I am not that keen on non-renewable resources that cause respiratory illness and accelerated global warming and drowning polar bears when burnt.



On another note... Random meeting infatuations are not a good basis for long-term partnerships apparently.

Nubby teeth man in meeting the other week was at my work do last week. Turns out his love of good questions and insightful comments when given longer than half an hour transmutes into hideous meeting egotism and unwillingness to hand over any of the roles. Watch my sweet hypothetical potential future husband transformed into scary meeting megolomaniac wielding the butchers paper and wanting to scribe and report back and be a small group one man band. Phew. Lucky I didn’t propose in the short break of our first meeting after all.

Monday, October 09, 2006

Adminerati

The Toothpaste for Dinner link is now fixed, thanks for letting me know it was dodgy. Today's was particularly strange, it made me wince. Wincing - now there's a face we should all pull more often. Did you ever do that thing when you were a kid where you would try and pull all the faces as you learnt fancy adult words for face pulling? Grimace, leer, wince, glower...and then you would say 'is it like this mum? Is this a grimace?' (a bit like, 'is this it, am I wiggling my ears??'). I don't recommend you do the face pulling drill at your desk at work as you read this though, no matter how tempting it is. Someone will think the email they just sent you is sending you into some kind of angry fit. Which I suppose could be good, if you wanted more personal space around the office.

Sunday, October 08, 2006

South of the border down butchers paper way

I've been in Melbourne for a few days, firstly for work and then for fun. Saw the Picasso exhibition "Love and War" about his life with his lover Dora Maar and then their time relating to the Spanish Civil War and the German occcupation of France. Heavy stuff. I'm a bit too pooped from the whirlwind of movement across towns to post all the stuff I thought about the exhibition right here and now, but I willl share one thing I loved. A little note from Picasso that just said "Dora Dora Dora Dora" etc. in rows in pencil across the back of an invitation to someone's exhibition opening. I thought it was a cute love note - abstract and full of longing.

Friday was spent in a flurry of butchers paper and running sheets. That was also exhausting (maybe I'm low on iron, everything feels exhausting this week!). Facilitating 11ish people a few weeks back was cause for complaint (if you remember that whingey post). Well Friday was 44 people! All day! Obviously I wasn't doing it solo, and our lead facilitator is great, but still, come 5pm, my colleagues and I were at the bar in slight catatonia, drinking red wine and trying really hard not to mingle any more than was completely unavoidable. Those of you who work in jobs where you have to get adults to act a bit like adults(Bryan, please listen to Laura, she's talking - and excuse me, the crayons are not for eating), or relate to the general public for hours at a time will probably understand that particular feeling. Aaah.

Caught up with an old workmate too, who is living a nice studenty life in funky inner suburbs of Melbourne. We had a tipsy walk of his suburbs and I was deliciously appalled at the most (THE most) hideous furniture and bridal dress shops in the world. A mix of opulent plastic fake Versaille white shiny bed-mansions in the furniture shops and tacky dead flies, manky manicquins and veils in the bridal dress shops. Eeew.

Wednesday, October 04, 2006

Hoop da loop

Further to my post in sunny Queensland I wanted to fess up that I haven’t touched a hoop since. Well, not that I have a hoop to touch, and it has only been a week, but still, not exactly as I had planned. I found a picture of a 1950’s woman in fitted frock and pearls looking insanely happy to be hooping, and stuck it up at work – so that’s gotta count for something, but not much. The good news is that the dance school where I did the Saturday Bollywood workshop with the Angelic Inner City Chick is now offering hoping workshops. I have enrolled in one! Apparently you can buy hoops there, consolidate the basics, learn tricks. I am so excited. My lunchtimes in the park with Justin Timberlake fantasy* now features me doing breathtakingly tricky tricks and wowing all passerbys with the sheer finesse of my skills, rather than knocking out passerbys with a hoop to the head.

Other recent learnings to share – do not, and I repeat, do not, demonstrate your love of hooping to your coworkers by reenacting the new found understated tight circlular hip motion that replaced your arse-out-legs-wide-and-bent-like-a-frog beginners technique…while sitting at your desk chair. Why? Oh only because you will look like a pervert who is trying out tantra with the upholstery whilst hoping to flag down a passing aeroplane with your strange wavy arms. Yes you will. That’s just too weird for work**.

• Not with actual Justin Timberlake, just his music, due to its amazing hula attributes, as discussed previously. Although, actually, if I’m honest I would probably go Justin. But you know, just the once. And not in the park near work.
• ** Unless you are trying to live in a David Lynch film, in which case I think that would be fine. All you would need as acccessories are some dwarves talking backwards and someone dancing alone in the corner to haunting music. See Betty Sue for discussions of life in a French Film.

Tuesday, October 03, 2006

Uncool is the new cool (maybe it always was)

OK so I had this moment where I was walking home from the grocery shop on Sunday with pak choy sticking out of my handbag, the sun setting, chilly mountain air starting to clench its icy little teeth at me, but my snug as a bug beige wool cardigan buttoned up to the neck, my hair in two little matching plaits, looking about as clean cut and fresh scrubbed as Pollyanna on the way to Sunday School, and I thought - hmmm, whatever happened to cool?

Which was a funny thought because in general I am highly contrary when it comes to the school of cool. Sure, I have succumbed to doing stupid things in the name of fad (many many stupid things which I wont bore you with listing, hopefully you have your own ridiculous lists to muse on and smile at), but despite that, nothing makes me turn my nose up at something faster than being told that I 'should' read/see/listen to/wear/eat it because it's cool. Just as an example, it took me years (years!) to read Neuromancer and listen to Nick Cave for instance because it gave the absolute shits that everyone seemed to think these were 'vital' accessories at a certain time and place of my youth (of course I enjoyed both when I finallly got there). It used to shit me that there was a certain currency in 'what one did with one's Saturday night', where you would find yourself propelled into going out, not just because you felt like it, not to whatever varied and surprising social activity you might feel like, but to a well-worn spot beside a bar, a dj, a dance floor - to be seen, to have stories to tell. It seemed so formulaic, so done for appearances, so lame. I found it refreshing when I got to a certain place in my twenties where I felt like I had shrugged off that expectation, and I could legitimately do whatever I want on a Saturday night - be that getting drunk out late with friends and telling ridiculous stories, be that in a bubble bath with a good book, be that home listening to music and painting, be that dressed up in my highest heels at an exhibition opening, in my slippers chatting on the phone to my mum with a glass of red, whatever. Not having to be, nor even worrying about, being somewhere "cool", being part of some glorious glittering moment, or feeling like something exciting is rushing past without me. In fact, I sometimes just think "I am where the fun is" - which sounds lame, but works for me as a gentle reminder on the odd occasion when I need it that whatever I am doing or wherever I am there is the potential to really enjoy and be part of that moment, for it to be significant. And it totallly doesn't mattter whether anyone else thinks it's great or not.

My friend Snap Dragon is a great reminder of some of this stuff for me. She is a gorgeous, funny, cultured, well travelled and highly creative woman who is always seems completely satisfied and grounded with her life but as a general rule doesn't go to parties because she doesn't like them (she's shy and she hates smalll talk with strangers in that context, but generally can chat to anyone)and has probably been in a pub like 5 times in her life. Her idea of a great party is afternoon tea, with cake. Some vestige of the tragic teenager in me thinks "but how?? How can she be funny and cool and not go out drinking??" which is, I think you'll agree, ridiculous.
I have another friend, Pony Girl, who is living away from the city close to her family to be a supportive and engaged daughter, sister and aunty. She enjoys the great outdoors, has just bought her own place, has started playing baseball and continues to care for and ride her horse. She's not into fashion or being edgy or better than anyone. Cool? I think so: confidence, warmth, generosity of spirit which are all very cool.
So this morning at work trying to answer the 'what did you do for the rest of your weekend?' question and explaining that I babysat for friends, caught up on housework, went out for coffee...I felt like the exterior didn't communicate the interior of that experience. The pleasure of the little stuff. Nice, gentle, quiet, sunshine through the window as I did dishes. Music as I sang around the house. The sleepy exhaustion of laying on a couch watching tellie while a baby slept soundly in the next room and his parents got to go to a birthday party. Making soup. Writing stuff. Daydreaming. Sleeping in. Having impromptu dinner at a friend's place and having intimacies shared in story. None of that comes through in the 'oh you know, a quiet one, house stuff...'.

Monday, October 02, 2006

Bless Bess

I love Bessie Smith and am grateful to my dear ma for bringing me up with diverse musical background that included all the wacky new romantics and eighties bands like The Style Council, The The, and The Smiths as well as older gems like Bessie, Billie, Nina and Ella. Bessie Smith was, as far as I can gather, the first real Lady of the Blues - she was born in 1894 and was signed up to a record label in 1923- performing right up until she died from a car accident in 1937. She wrote and sang and was especially famous and well paid in the 20's. I am listeningto the album 'Bessie smith - The Empress and the Pianist 1923-1931" which has a bunchh of songs with her accompanied by some well known pianists oftehday. There is something no nonsense, clean and simple about blues singing accompanied by just piano or guitar, and these recordings are great. Her voice is rich and confident, easy, plain almost, but with clarity, and expression. To quote the CD sleeve 'There was a day in February 1923 when Bessie Smith went into a studio to record Alberta Huter's Down Hearted Blues that was to be a revelation. Suddenly everything was changed by that powerful contralto, by an unparallelled dramatic depth, a persuasive power that owed nothing to sentimentality. The pure beauty that resounded through the amplifiers, stunning everybody in the studio, would be produced on thoasands on 78s.'.
I like her because she sounds so strong, no nonsense, a powerful woman. The way she sings the Blues there is yearning and pain and grit and sensuality and survival - but nothing tragic, nothing flimsy, nothing showy. I can imagine the life of her big family raised by her big sister after the early death of her parents, can feel the dust of the Great Depression looming, feel the worn wood of front porches, and simple kitchens and women's bodies in faded cotton and men with hats drinking, their guarded eyes looking out to horizon, squinting into the sun.

Sunday, October 01, 2006

little boxes, drawers

Blogs are funny places to store your words. They are like spice drawers, or little lidded boxes, not strung together like Christmas lights all in a row. Not like a word processesing file in a long line down the page and off the screen, streaming, winding, straight down the page. Blogs store little leaves discarded from trees, caught across the landscape in hollows to make rich mulch of their own accord. Lovely.

Painting the sky with beautiful curves

Lately I have been watching birds. There are birds all over this town, if you look up and notice, and they are playing out their own complex struggles of dominance and coexistence. I sometimes watch birds out of my window, high up, and so get to see them flying past this canvas of my vision. They each fly according to some pattern which seems destined – as if they simply fly along an invisible thread, through the channel which is there for them. I have taken to drawing their paths, because now that I watch like this I can’t just see the bird, it’s downward head and stretched pointed face, its wings blunt and pointed down from a plump body or up and ending in thinning feathers curved and arced, but I see the very arc that they take through space. I see piglet tail-like curls where the little birds fly in swift curves, I see straight lines like arrows from heavy cockatoos who sink into the air and thrust forward, the gently gently updraft curve of a wattle bird, the companionable wiggle towards a tree by two honey birds. And I wonder – why have I never seen this before? As if these birds are painting the sky with these beautiful curves and I never even knew.